the day after - three years after
[27 June, 2005 typed at 3:04 p.m.]

how strangishly weird...
it's my diaries thrid birthday today, and looking back on my first ever entry and the lyrics at the beginning (see i can spell it) of that post are playing right now!!!!
that toally freaked me out, so random of me to have alanis' 'under rug swept' on (for the fact that i havent listened to it in a while)

so it's my world going full circle!

three years and no where near three years of entries, this being entry 270....
means im so far behind, but then again by whoes standards, maybe thats just enough for me, and maybe five hundred and twenty something is enough for others

this has been a secure home (the only) for three years and to look at the older entries and see myself make a fucking fool of me, talk non-stop about alanis morissette, grow, laugh, cry (cause i know which entries i cried while writing)
it's all an earth moving thing for me, to see where the mistakes have been made, where the bad gramma is, pictures that dont exsist on entries anymore....
i wonder if in another three years [at 25] if this will still be here, and if i'll still be using it, or will i know who i am, will i have kids, will i be everything?

thanks to gavin-joel [the diary and kinda myself] i've had a voice not only to myself but to others that wouldn't notice a thing, or think of me differently
the diary has opened doors for me i never would've ventured in....

and that's it for now,

HAPPY THIRD BIRTHDAY DIARY!!!!!!!
hope you've all enjoyed, and i hope that all 43 of you that buddylisted me, give some birthday wishes
you know where to do it too

brice ooooooooooooooooout!

away + towards