on the couch
[14 July, 2005 typed at 5:04 p.m.]

is it all worth it, is it all worth the dollars?
will i look back and feel acomplished, or will i feel as if it was a waste of time?
why dont i know, why dont i feel happy about it, why am i still fucking waiting?

push me off the edge,
or move or something...help me out, give me a clue, remember me.

please, give me a sign.
im not a side dish, im the main fucking course!

away + towards