daily dose
[10 May, 2005 typed at 6:44 p.m.]

I walk in....
it's two mintues to six, i sigh, cause i missed my bus and should've been in half and hour ago

i shove my work bag in the corner, do the usual putting of my wallet, phone and ipod on the bedside table, turn the light on, grab the remote and switch on the television (usually for the last half of Ellen....but not today, it's too late)

i take off my shirt, singlet, pants and socks.....
grab the last of my 'Molson Kicks', turn the shower on and jump in.....it's 22 outside and i've been locked in work ALL day (not setting foot outside for 9 and a quater hours, and there's no air conditioning, so inside the hellhole it felt like 29-30)

it's a colder shower then usual, and i've still got beer in hand (a beer in the shower, who would've thought??? but it's one of those fucking days, where you NEED a beer, yes like an alcoholic!!! so if you have to have it in the shower, you wiil)

i grab the soap, start lathering up and thoughts start flowing...you know like they do, because it's the shower, what else are you gonna think about?

and what is going thru my tiny little mind i hear you all [not] asking......
ranomly i was thinking about the term 'homophobic'
Dictionary.com describes it as meaning:
1. Fear of or contempt for lesbians and gay men.
2. Behavior based on such a feeling
now, dont get me wrong, i completely understand the meaning of the word, but when it's broken down (into two words, for those playing at home) it's different....

Phobic: Of, relating to, arising from, or having a phobia

Homo: A member of the genus Homo, which includes the extinct and extant species of humans.

so by definition, isn't a homophobe someone who is afraid of the entire human race?
why dont we change the term???

but then again i suppose someone cant be a 'gayophobe' or a 'fagaphobe' can they, cause then i'd be caught out on my own rule, thus making them afraid of a bundle of twigs or being cheerful.....
so when it all comes down to it, im just being over compensational for my stupid side!!!
or we (as people) need to not shorting the term and just say 'homosexualphobic')
now isnt that a weird random shower thought?
and dont start getting all up on my back because you think im homophobic, you fucking idiots!
it was a RANDOM thought and if you know me at all you know im not homophobic......not like i've never thought a guy was attractive, or kissed mroe then one, or wondered if i was bi-sexual, so back off before you jump the gun!!!

thought ends, i grab the shampooo and wash my hair, checking to see how much dye runs out, oh yeah i dyed my hair on saturday, it's black....looks blue in sunlight

i dry off, thinking about what this entry is going to be about, put the bed clothes on (cause im not headed anywhere) and sit in front of tbs watching siendfeld until the computer is free......

and now here i am

away + towards