the day before
[25 June, 2005 typed at 7:15 p.m.]

and the self pitied victim strikes again, and it's weird he knows the exact right time to do so

and who the fuck am i kidding, because that sad mother fucker is this soon to be 22 yeard old....

he's running away but not getting anywhere, instead lying in bed, pissing off others who care.
and this is something he is yet to grasp, for this im sorry, for this i hope you forgive me

for this he hopes you stick by, because as much as i will deny it, i fucking need you, as much as i will break your heart and make you hate me, i need you and i cant deny that here!!

sorry....
it seems that this diary (who will be three in two days) seems more mature and in the right frame of mind then me

this isnt a test, this isnt a form of attention seeking

this is a cry for help

away + towards