emotional little thing
[25 February, 2005 typed at 10:27 a.m.]

friday, and im taking a day off from work, to let my cut up fingers and scraped nose heal....

i recall yesterday and the day before wanting to fill this space with rants and random thoughts, but they arent coming to mind right now

work has just been a big fat fuckin' ass, boring as batshit....i did get called 'oz' on monday and everyday since, by a guy called nick, apparently gavin is too hard for him to remember, so im oz!

(i think) it was tuesday night, and im surfing the tube, and for some strange reason "Boy Meets World" catches my eye, i remember i used to watch that show all the time, man i think i was watching when i was in like grade 5, holy shit i was 10......

anyways, so i was watching it, and from what i can gather, it was the final ever episode, where cory, his best friend shawn and his wife (yes wife, they got married) topanga, all move away to new york for some unknown reason.......and me watching it for like 15 mintues, starts to bawl like a little fucking baby, i couldn't believe it, i stopped watching that show after it's second year or sumthink....and i suddenly catch the last episode and im totally engrossed in it, and my emotions gave way...he (cory) said goodbye to mister feeny and im in fucking tears, like when your throat hurts crying, what the fuck????? where the hell did that come from - maybe it was an underlying issue, like - i dunno, it's been ten years since i was in primary school with all my friends, sitting on the basketball court drinking juice,eating biscuts and listening to my walkman and tying my mullet up in a ponytail....and now im living in canada, i've moved on, from those friends, and the mullet.

maybe it just tugged a few little heart strings, maybe im just a big fat baby

away + towards